Metamorphosis

Personal Thoughts

Do you ever just skim through old photographs and shock yourself with how much you’ve changed throughout the years? That’s definitely something a lot of us do, I mean, we even have a hash-tag for it: #tbt (Throwback Thursday anyone?). I guess it’s such a natural part of our humanity, isn’t it? Reminiscing through our past and trying to think of all the ways in which we have progressed or have become better as people?

Do you remember your first big haircut? I do. It was my freshman year and I had really long hair. Running track with long hair isn’t fun either, unless you like getting whipped in the face a bunch of times. A lot of people thought I had beautiful hair, and whenever I brought up the idea of cutting it, they would all instantly shut me down to tell me that I would really regret it. In the end, who’s to know? I ended up chopping most of it off, and I loved it. It felt like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders… literally though. Funny, how much a haircut can do. That haircut was one of many things that I did to change my physical appearance.

After freshman year, I was determined. I would try everything I could to become who I saw myself to be on the inside. I wanted others to view my creativity, but on my exterior, so I would draw out self portraits of how I imagined myself to look like in five years. Even after all the years of changing myself, I am still not done. I am much closer than I was the day before, though, which I’m content with. Even though I do want others to see my creativity, it doesn’t mean that I’m doing it for others, because ultimately, I’m doing it for myself. Coming from a very low self esteem and an eating disorder, I never saw myself as beautiful. However, the more I changed my outward appearance, the more beautiful I found myself to be.

My hair color, my accessories, my clothing, my tattoos; these are all apart of who I am and who I want to be. This doesn’t make me less of a person or more of a person, and it also does not mean that I am vain or selfish. These are what make me more confident and help me to stand up for myself. If dying my hair blue is going to make me smile a little bit more, or having a beautiful piece of art tattooed on my body is going to make me feel more confident in my skin and more badass, then why not?

met·a·mor·pho·sis

/ˌmedəˈmôrfəsəs/

Noun

  • a change of the form or nature of a thing or person into a completely different one, by natural or supernatural means.

We’re all going or have gone through some sort of “metamorphosis”, and it ‘s good, because we are not the people we were yesterday. I would be really worried if all of humanity still had the mind of a newborn, but lucky us, we’re not newborns! So, look around you, and take in all the beautiful people out there that are going through their own special metamorphosis. Each day we are closer to the person we want to be, and being closer to that is what makes us smile, and happiness is the one thing that looks great on everyone.

Pruning Season

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For the past two months, I have been having a lot of time to myself outside in the wintry cold, and pruning at work. The orchard in my job is very expansive, so there are a large amount of trees to prune. When I would approach a tree for the first time, it would literally be a disaster. These branches and limbs would overflow in every which way possible. It was so disastrous, that I heard it speak under it’s breath, mocking me, “There’s no possible way you can fix this.” Despite it’s sneering remarks, I took my pruners with a great force of confidence and snipped away the intruding branches and twigs, and anything that was going to cause this tree to grow in a negative way. As the days grew longer and longer with pruning, I felt pain start to form in my back and my arms from overusing them. It required a great deal of persistence, but I was able to prune every resistant tree in the orchard.

With most events in my life, I of course thought of what I was doing with great depth. I began to compare this with scripture, like John 15:1-4,

“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.”

I begin to think about how God always puts us in a situation at one point in our lives where it feels as though we are truly broken. All the addictions that once held us in chains are now being cut and broken by Christ. All the sorrows, all the heartaches, all the sleepless nights, all the pain, all the illnesses, all the anxiety, all the voices in your head that tell you that you are not good enough or you’ll never amount to anything. There’s a point in our lives where God prunes all those negative branches in our life out. He cuts out all the intrusions that take you away from further seeking and serving his Kingdom, and provides more space for light to seep in so that you are able to grow. Without light, you cannot grow. Also, pruning is always done in the coldest and most brutal seasons. The storm takes over your life, and you feel as though you are being pushed in every aspect of your life. Until the sun starts poking through and life begins to grow within you, allowing you to bloom beautiful flowers that then turn into ripened, delicious fruit.

This all seems like such a complicated process, but that’s because it is! This all has to happen to us, though, so that we do not wither and die away, but that we are open to receive God’s light and love, which allows our spirits to grow!

For it says in Ephesians 5:14,

 “Wake up, sleeper,

rise from the dead,

and Christ will shine on you.”

Winter season is over, and the Spring time is here! Rise from your darkness, and live in the light that God has given you!

Love and Blessings,

Kat

Your First Love

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“Warning Against Unbelief

 So, as the Holy Spirit says:

‘Today, if you hear his voice,
     do not harden your hearts
as you did in the rebellion,
    during the time of testing in the wilderness,
 where your ancestors tested and tried me,
    though for forty years they saw what I did.’ “

-Hebrews 3:7-9 (NIV)


Apologies for not being able to post a devotional for a little while, due to the immense amount of work I’m doing for my online courses! But, God is good, and he is revealing himself to me more and more with each passing day. I decided to open up my bible last night and have some one on one devotional time with God again, and what I read made me stop in my tracks instantly.

There are many believers who are what I call, “Once a Week Christian”, and they are all too common now a days. Sometimes we need to remember that this is not just a hello and goodbye relationship with our King, but it is a constant and growing relationship in which we must be willing to set aside all our wants and even our needs in order to make Him first in our lives.

Do you remember your high school sweetheart or your first love? Do you remember how much your heart would just turn into mushy gushy goop at the very sight of them? Every time they complimented you and looked at you a certain way, your heart would start beating faster than a hummingbird. We need to remember that Jesus was our first love. He was the one who loved you like crazy and actually gave up his life on the cross in order for you to have life.

Should we not treat him as our only love? Let’s not have our hearts harden. Let us remain with the same fire that we had when we had our first encounter with Jesus Christ. Don’t walk away and forget about all that he has done for you! We had our time in this world, and experienced that what this world holds is still not sufficient enough, we still are missing something. We are missing the main source of life. We are missing the love of our lives.

God is such a jealous God, and he just wants all of our undivided attention. He wants to pick at our brains and figure us out. He wants to read the desires of our hearts. Allow him to make his way in your life today. Pray that he renews your heart, and reveals to you his all consuming love.

Love and Blessings,

Kat A.

Under God’s Umbrella

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“That’s my parting gift to you. Peace. I don’t leave you the way you’re used to being left—feeling abandoned, bereft. So don’t be upset. Don’t be distraught.”

-John 14:27 (The Message)


If you’re like any human that has ever step foot on this Earth, you must then know that life is not the easiest, and can be really difficult at times. You have financial instability, overwhelming school work, unfaithful friends and lovers, heartbreaks, addictions, sickness, and everything else that is named in the book.

Now think about what or who you go to in times like these. Yes, friends and family are good to go to for advice and comfort, but what if they aren’t available or able to help you with a specific problem that you are facing in your life? They might just be in the same boat as you! You need someone who is holding the umbrella in your life storms. You need someone even higher and more powerful.

God offers us peace and protection , but that does not mean that troubling times aren’t promised. Yes, we can be the most devoted follower of Christ, but still have a raging storm around us! These storms are to remind you of your own helplessness and to remind you that you have someone mighty that wants you to recognize that he is above all and he is able to guide you through it all.

God provides us with a peace that no one can ever be capable of offering us. His peace is everlasting and is already in front of our faces and under our noses, all we have to do is reach out and take it. Pray that God fills you with his spirit of peace in the the storm that you are facing today. Make God the one holding your umbrella in this storm today, tomorrow, and forever more.

You don’t have to worry any more.

God has you under his umbrella.

Love and Blessings,

Kat A.

Being Blinded by our Human Desires

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“The boys grew up. Esau became an expert hunter, an outdoorsman. Jacob was a quiet man preferring life indoors among the tents. Isaac loved Esau because he loved his game, but Rebekah loved Jacob.

 One day Jacob was cooking a stew. Esau came in from the field, starved. Esau said to Jacob, “Give me some of that red stew—I’m starved!” That’s how he came to be called Edom (Red).

 Jacob said, “Make me a trade: my stew for your rights as the firstborn.”

 Esau said, “I’m starving! What good is a birthright if I’m dead?”

 Jacob said, “First, swear to me.” And he did it. On oath Esau traded away his rights as the firstborn. Jacob gave him bread and the stew of lentils. He ate and drank, got up and left. That’s how Esau shrugged off his rights as the firstborn.” 

-Genesis 25:27-34 (The Message)


I encourage you to read this passage over once more. Okay, did you do it? Okay, now do it once more. Read this until you truly understand and until it starts resonating deep within your spirit. It took me a couple of reads to truly understand the point of this story. It’s very powerful once your mind grasps the meaning behind what is truly going on behind this story.

To summarize what happened here, Esau did something very foolish and gave up his birthright to satisfy a temporary satisfaction, in which case is the lentil stew that Jacob was preparing for supper. Our lives can reflect Esau’s actions in such a deep and realistic level if you think about it. Many times, we become blinded to the consequences that may rise up down the road once we stand face to face with our fleshly desires.

Once a temptation blocks our passageway in our walk of righteousness, we can be easily drawn in and deviate from our path, our main focus, and goal: Having an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ and being able to enter the Kingdom of God! As we go through our daily walk, pray and ask the Holy Spirit to guide your footsteps, so you don’t stray away from your path. Meditate on God, and make him the center of your universe; draw near to him and his word.

Don’t be foolish like Esau and fall for a fleeting and temporary satisfaction, rather, think about how it may affect your walk with Christ and how it may or may not benefit you as you try to live a Godly life and obey his good law!

Love and Blessings,

Kat A.

By Faith and Faith Alone

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“By an act of faith, Moses’ parents hid him away for three months after his birth. They saw the child’s beauty, and they braved the king’s decree.

 By faith, Moses, when grown, refused the privileges of the Egyptian royal house. He chose a hard life with God’s people rather than an opportunistic soft life of sin with the oppressors. He valued suffering in the Messiah’s camp far greater than Egyptian wealth because he was looking ahead, anticipating the payoff. By an act of faith, he turned his heel on Egypt, indifferent to the king’s blind rage. He had his eye on the One no eye can see, and kept right on going. By an act of faith, he kept the Passover Feast and sprinkled Passover blood on each house so that the destroyer of the firstborn wouldn’t touch them.

 By an act of faith, Israel walked through the Red Sea on dry ground. The Egyptians tried it and drowned.”

 -Hebrews 11:23-29 (The Message)


Going through our lives being unsure of our future and what is down the road can be very unsettling. The bible teaches us of many scenarios in which men and women of God did not fear the unknown, for they had someone much greater by their side and overruling their lives.

God calls us out to live by faith, and that is exactly what Moses did in this passage. No matter his past, he still remained focused and had had his eyes set on the one that couldn’t be seen. With that leap of faith, God blessed him abundantly and made him to be the leader of the Israelite’s and led them to freedom!

It’s not easy, I know. But think about how we have someone so mighty and powerful watching out for us. Someone who let their son die so that you may have life. How can we not pour out our lives for the most romantic God? A God who loves us so much, that he gives us new air to fill our lungs each and every day! Think about all the times that God has saved you, over and over again. You’re alive and well right now because of his grace.

We see so much proof of his outpouring love and mercy everyday, why should we even question giving over our lives completely to him? Let him take over your life and show you beauty you’ve never seen before. You are a child of the most high King and he has such great plans for your life!

Live by faith, and see what He can do for you!

Love and Blessings,

Kat A.