Do you ever just skim through old photographs and shock yourself with how much you’ve changed throughout the years? That’s definitely something a lot of us do, I mean, we even have a hash-tag for it: #tbt (Throwback Thursday anyone?). I guess it’s such a natural part of our humanity, isn’t it? Reminiscing through our past and trying to think of all the ways in which we have progressed or have become better as people?
Do you remember your first big haircut? I do. It was my freshman year and I had really long hair. Running track with long hair isn’t fun either, unless you like getting whipped in the face a bunch of times. A lot of people thought I had beautiful hair, and whenever I brought up the idea of cutting it, they would all instantly shut me down to tell me that I would really regret it. In the end, who’s to know? I ended up chopping most of it off, and I loved it. It felt like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders… literally though. Funny, how much a haircut can do. That haircut was one of many things that I did to change my physical appearance.
After freshman year, I was determined. I would try everything I could to become who I saw myself to be on the inside. I wanted others to view my creativity, but on my exterior, so I would draw out self portraits of how I imagined myself to look like in five years. Even after all the years of changing myself, I am still not done. I am much closer than I was the day before, though, which I’m content with. Even though I do want others to see my creativity, it doesn’t mean that I’m doing it for others, because ultimately, I’m doing it for myself. Coming from a very low self esteem and an eating disorder, I never saw myself as beautiful. However, the more I changed my outward appearance, the more beautiful I found myself to be.
My hair color, my accessories, my clothing, my tattoos; these are all apart of who I am and who I want to be. This doesn’t make me less of a person or more of a person, and it also does not mean that I am vain or selfish. These are what make me more confident and help me to stand up for myself. If dying my hair blue is going to make me smile a little bit more, or having a beautiful piece of art tattooed on my body is going to make me feel more confident in my skin and more badass, then why not?
a change of the form or nature of a thing or person into a completely different one, by natural or supernatural means.
We’re all going or have gone through some sort of “metamorphosis”, and it ‘s good, because we are not the people we were yesterday. I would be really worried if all of humanity still had the mind of a newborn, but lucky us, we’re not newborns! So, look around you, and take in all the beautiful people out there that are going through their own special metamorphosis. Each day we are closer to the person we want to be, and being closer to that is what makes us smile, and happiness is the one thing that looks great on everyone.