Now

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Today, as I was sitting down on the grass and feeling the wind gently tug on my hair, and rooting my toes deeper and deeper into the Earth, I realized something. I realized something that I have been trying to figure out for the longest time, and that is, how important it is to be content with today and humble ourselves in the now. I know I usually do a Bible devotion, and such, but I felt as though I wanted to just release this thought in in the form of a blog post. I wanted to write a personal blog, as a release for the flow of thoughts that I have had today.

As I go about my days, I find myself always either regretting my past and wanting to go back and change something, or being overly anxious and distressed about my future. I know that I can’t be the only one who feels this way. As I thought deeper about this, I realized how much my past and future consume me so much, that I completely have been disregarding my present. It’s as though, I entirely forget about it, even though it’s happening. Isn’t that wild? When my brain started to churn again, I thought about what my past self was like. If my past self was always worrying about the future, which is my present self, how much has changed? Just as how if my future self starts regretting what her past self did, which is my present self, how much would I grow?

The answer is, that I wouldn’t. What is a life, if it is constantly being drowned by anxiety and stress? What good would it do me to feel this way? Will it make me healthier? Will it solve answers and questions? Because, I don’t know if it’s just me, but I am always asking questions and am in need of so many answers. But what if there are a large amount of questions about my life that can’t be answered? Isn’t that the beauty of this life? Isn’t it beautiful to have mystery in our lives? In time, our questions will surely be answered, but in the meantime, why can we not just sit, breathe, and take in today?

What if our lives were like books? And what if all the books that were sold in bookstores were just the summaries of the stories? Can you imagine that? All the books we read being one page long? We can’t expect our lives to be one page and feel complete. It’s not a book if it’s one page. It’s not a life if you lived out all your dreams and fulfilled all your goals and had all your questions answered in a day. That’s why our lives must be like a book, enjoying every page, little by little. There will be new chapters, and plot twists, and an ending, but until then, why not enjoy it, right?

Just a thought. I hope I didn’t confuse many of you, and I know I went on for a bit of a rant, but I just felt the need to express that today.

Thank you for those who have been reading my posts, and until next time!

Kat

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Pruning Season

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For the past two months, I have been having a lot of time to myself outside in the wintry cold, and pruning at work. The orchard in my job is very expansive, so there are a large amount of trees to prune. When I would approach a tree for the first time, it would literally be a disaster. These branches and limbs would overflow in every which way possible. It was so disastrous, that I heard it speak under it’s breath, mocking me, “There’s no possible way you can fix this.” Despite it’s sneering remarks, I took my pruners with a great force of confidence and snipped away the intruding branches and twigs, and anything that was going to cause this tree to grow in a negative way. As the days grew longer and longer with pruning, I felt pain start to form in my back and my arms from overusing them. It required a great deal of persistence, but I was able to prune every resistant tree in the orchard.

With most events in my life, I of course thought of what I was doing with great depth. I began to compare this with scripture, like John 15:1-4,

“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.”

I begin to think about how God always puts us in a situation at one point in our lives where it feels as though we are truly broken. All the addictions that once held us in chains are now being cut and broken by Christ. All the sorrows, all the heartaches, all the sleepless nights, all the pain, all the illnesses, all the anxiety, all the voices in your head that tell you that you are not good enough or you’ll never amount to anything. There’s a point in our lives where God prunes all those negative branches in our life out. He cuts out all the intrusions that take you away from further seeking and serving his Kingdom, and provides more space for light to seep in so that you are able to grow. Without light, you cannot grow. Also, pruning is always done in the coldest and most brutal seasons. The storm takes over your life, and you feel as though you are being pushed in every aspect of your life. Until the sun starts poking through and life begins to grow within you, allowing you to bloom beautiful flowers that then turn into ripened, delicious fruit.

This all seems like such a complicated process, but that’s because it is! This all has to happen to us, though, so that we do not wither and die away, but that we are open to receive God’s light and love, which allows our spirits to grow!

For it says in Ephesians 5:14,

 “Wake up, sleeper,

rise from the dead,

and Christ will shine on you.”

Winter season is over, and the Spring time is here! Rise from your darkness, and live in the light that God has given you!

Love and Blessings,

Kat

Do it to Make Him Proud

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“So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.”

-1 Corinthians 10:31 (NLT)

As I think and pray everyday about what I’m going to do with my future, I find myself hurting more and more. With all that I do, I wish to make my parents proud and I want them to see me as their hardworking daughter who is trying her best to figure things out and make something of herself. I currently go to school online in a wonderful university, but in my case, wanting to earn a living by gaining a degree in visual arts is not something I can achieve online. That would mean that I would have to travel all the way to Virginia from New York, and I’ve grown so close to the Hudson Valley, that I could not consider anywhere else home but here. Deep in my heart, I don’t want to leave. I want to stay here, and I pray for this every day.

As God continues speaking to me, he is revealing to me more and more that he is listening. He hears the desires of my heart and knows all my thoughts. It doesn’t matter what anyone else says and what anyone else thinks. You are beloved and you are a child of a King. He has called you redeemed and has made you new. Focus on him first, and everything else will all fall into place. Do everything that you do now, tomorrow, and in the rest of your days, to the glory of God. It’s becoming more clear to me, and it has me more at peace. When I see the look of disappointment in someone’s face when I tell them my dreams and my goals and what I am trying to do to obtain them, don’t let it affect you to the point of not doing those things! It may hurt, when you see their disappointment, and it may even deter you from even moving forward in your plans, but don’t do it. If you have a dream, a passion, and a goal, speak out those desires to your father so he may hear them. And do it all to your Heavenly Father’s glory, to make HIM proud.

Your First Love

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“Warning Against Unbelief

 So, as the Holy Spirit says:

‘Today, if you hear his voice,
     do not harden your hearts
as you did in the rebellion,
    during the time of testing in the wilderness,
 where your ancestors tested and tried me,
    though for forty years they saw what I did.’ “

-Hebrews 3:7-9 (NIV)


Apologies for not being able to post a devotional for a little while, due to the immense amount of work I’m doing for my online courses! But, God is good, and he is revealing himself to me more and more with each passing day. I decided to open up my bible last night and have some one on one devotional time with God again, and what I read made me stop in my tracks instantly.

There are many believers who are what I call, “Once a Week Christian”, and they are all too common now a days. Sometimes we need to remember that this is not just a hello and goodbye relationship with our King, but it is a constant and growing relationship in which we must be willing to set aside all our wants and even our needs in order to make Him first in our lives.

Do you remember your high school sweetheart or your first love? Do you remember how much your heart would just turn into mushy gushy goop at the very sight of them? Every time they complimented you and looked at you a certain way, your heart would start beating faster than a hummingbird. We need to remember that Jesus was our first love. He was the one who loved you like crazy and actually gave up his life on the cross in order for you to have life.

Should we not treat him as our only love? Let’s not have our hearts harden. Let us remain with the same fire that we had when we had our first encounter with Jesus Christ. Don’t walk away and forget about all that he has done for you! We had our time in this world, and experienced that what this world holds is still not sufficient enough, we still are missing something. We are missing the main source of life. We are missing the love of our lives.

God is such a jealous God, and he just wants all of our undivided attention. He wants to pick at our brains and figure us out. He wants to read the desires of our hearts. Allow him to make his way in your life today. Pray that he renews your heart, and reveals to you his all consuming love.

Love and Blessings,

Kat A.

Under God’s Umbrella

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“That’s my parting gift to you. Peace. I don’t leave you the way you’re used to being left—feeling abandoned, bereft. So don’t be upset. Don’t be distraught.”

-John 14:27 (The Message)


If you’re like any human that has ever step foot on this Earth, you must then know that life is not the easiest, and can be really difficult at times. You have financial instability, overwhelming school work, unfaithful friends and lovers, heartbreaks, addictions, sickness, and everything else that is named in the book.

Now think about what or who you go to in times like these. Yes, friends and family are good to go to for advice and comfort, but what if they aren’t available or able to help you with a specific problem that you are facing in your life? They might just be in the same boat as you! You need someone who is holding the umbrella in your life storms. You need someone even higher and more powerful.

God offers us peace and protection , but that does not mean that troubling times aren’t promised. Yes, we can be the most devoted follower of Christ, but still have a raging storm around us! These storms are to remind you of your own helplessness and to remind you that you have someone mighty that wants you to recognize that he is above all and he is able to guide you through it all.

God provides us with a peace that no one can ever be capable of offering us. His peace is everlasting and is already in front of our faces and under our noses, all we have to do is reach out and take it. Pray that God fills you with his spirit of peace in the the storm that you are facing today. Make God the one holding your umbrella in this storm today, tomorrow, and forever more.

You don’t have to worry any more.

God has you under his umbrella.

Love and Blessings,

Kat A.

Being Blinded by our Human Desires

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“The boys grew up. Esau became an expert hunter, an outdoorsman. Jacob was a quiet man preferring life indoors among the tents. Isaac loved Esau because he loved his game, but Rebekah loved Jacob.

 One day Jacob was cooking a stew. Esau came in from the field, starved. Esau said to Jacob, “Give me some of that red stew—I’m starved!” That’s how he came to be called Edom (Red).

 Jacob said, “Make me a trade: my stew for your rights as the firstborn.”

 Esau said, “I’m starving! What good is a birthright if I’m dead?”

 Jacob said, “First, swear to me.” And he did it. On oath Esau traded away his rights as the firstborn. Jacob gave him bread and the stew of lentils. He ate and drank, got up and left. That’s how Esau shrugged off his rights as the firstborn.” 

-Genesis 25:27-34 (The Message)


I encourage you to read this passage over once more. Okay, did you do it? Okay, now do it once more. Read this until you truly understand and until it starts resonating deep within your spirit. It took me a couple of reads to truly understand the point of this story. It’s very powerful once your mind grasps the meaning behind what is truly going on behind this story.

To summarize what happened here, Esau did something very foolish and gave up his birthright to satisfy a temporary satisfaction, in which case is the lentil stew that Jacob was preparing for supper. Our lives can reflect Esau’s actions in such a deep and realistic level if you think about it. Many times, we become blinded to the consequences that may rise up down the road once we stand face to face with our fleshly desires.

Once a temptation blocks our passageway in our walk of righteousness, we can be easily drawn in and deviate from our path, our main focus, and goal: Having an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ and being able to enter the Kingdom of God! As we go through our daily walk, pray and ask the Holy Spirit to guide your footsteps, so you don’t stray away from your path. Meditate on God, and make him the center of your universe; draw near to him and his word.

Don’t be foolish like Esau and fall for a fleeting and temporary satisfaction, rather, think about how it may affect your walk with Christ and how it may or may not benefit you as you try to live a Godly life and obey his good law!

Love and Blessings,

Kat A.