New Life of Love

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“So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It’s your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.”

-Colossians 3:12-14 (The Message)

For the past two weeks, I have been constantly getting the message of “forgiveness”. What is forgiveness? According to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary, it is: (A) to give up resentment of or claim to requital for, or: (B) to grant relief from payment of. You may think, by looking at both these definitions, that they have nothing to do with each other. Yet, I am here to say that it is merely the opposite. When you have resentment towards someone and are unforgiving towards them, most of the time, the reasoning is that the opposing person has done you wrong. They have done so much wrong to you, that you have hatred and a grudge towards them that is blocking you from even communicating to them. You are like this, because you are waiting for a payment. “What? What are you even talking about, Kat?” I am saying that you are waiting for that person to give you something for causing you to despise them in such a horrid way. You want a payment. You want an apology. You want a sign that they strongly feel guilty about what they did and would do anything to gain that relationship that they once had with you back. I am here to say, that the apology you are waiting for may never come. You may be lying in your death bed waiting for that apology and it will never escape their lips. “So what am I to do? I can’t just let it go. They really hurt me.” If you are this kind of person, you are going to completely want to renew and change your train of thought. I know I still have to do this, and am slowly being revealed to it, but you must give it up, and let it go. (Elsa had some good words of advice) Stop waiting for that payment that will never show up at your doorstep, and surrender it all to God. If Jesus could forgive you faster than the speed of light, you can also. We are to walk as living representations of Christ with everything that we do, and if we have to forgive Jimmy for taking our lunch money in Ms. Clark’s kindergarten class, so be it. We are new creations meant to live in love and not hate. So lay it down, all of it, at the foot of the cross and continue onward in this new life of love.

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Do it to Make Him Proud

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“So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.”

-1 Corinthians 10:31 (NLT)

As I think and pray everyday about what I’m going to do with my future, I find myself hurting more and more. With all that I do, I wish to make my parents proud and I want them to see me as their hardworking daughter who is trying her best to figure things out and make something of herself. I currently go to school online in a wonderful university, but in my case, wanting to earn a living by gaining a degree in visual arts is not something I can achieve online. That would mean that I would have to travel all the way to Virginia from New York, and I’ve grown so close to the Hudson Valley, that I could not consider anywhere else home but here. Deep in my heart, I don’t want to leave. I want to stay here, and I pray for this every day.

As God continues speaking to me, he is revealing to me more and more that he is listening. He hears the desires of my heart and knows all my thoughts. It doesn’t matter what anyone else says and what anyone else thinks. You are beloved and you are a child of a King. He has called you redeemed and has made you new. Focus on him first, and everything else will all fall into place. Do everything that you do now, tomorrow, and in the rest of your days, to the glory of God. It’s becoming more clear to me, and it has me more at peace. When I see the look of disappointment in someone’s face when I tell them my dreams and my goals and what I am trying to do to obtain them, don’t let it affect you to the point of not doing those things! It may hurt, when you see their disappointment, and it may even deter you from even moving forward in your plans, but don’t do it. If you have a dream, a passion, and a goal, speak out those desires to your father so he may hear them. And do it all to your Heavenly Father’s glory, to make HIM proud.

Enjoying every last drop of this year

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“What are you thinking about?”, he asks me as I realize that I have a large smile on my face as I breathe in the beautiful and warming atmosphere of the coffee shop we sit in. My eyes gaze around the room, admiring each little knick knack here and there, from the art displays on the walls, to the paper hearts hanging from the ceiling. I let my lungs fill with the sweetest smell of coffee as I breathe in the steam off of my worn out mug, and answer him with a “Nothing.”

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Thoughts swirl around my head as I let my imaginations run wild. I look at the little shops around us as I peer through the glass, imagining what it would be like to own a little apartment up above a small coffee shop like this. I then feel someone lightly tracing my skin on my hand and I look up to see Jake smiling at me. I so very much enjoy his company because it’s as though we don’t need to drown our days with conversation, we’re content with just being in each others presence. We don’t need to speak because we already know what the other is thinking about through little gestures. As I sit there soaking in every moment, he is also sitting there and doing the same.

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As we finish our lunch, and enjoy every savory morsel of it too, we prepare ourselves to go out and venture to different whereabouts in the beautiful area we know as the Hudson Valley. We walk around with pink noses and frosted fingertips in the historic town of Kingston. We admire the little shops here and there that are filled with different and unique characters. Nothing compares to this area in the wintertime, for even though this is the time of frostbitten toes and dead trees, there is still so much life and spirit around us as people smile and enjoy the festivities of the giving season.

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Jake takes a hold of my hand and walks me around this beautiful town, and tells me stories of his childhood, his favorite memories, classic Marvel comic book nerd talk, and of course… Yes, you guessed… A bit of Star Wars loving. I laugh at all his little quirks and smirks and let the cold wind kiss my face as Jack Frost gives me a small “Hello.”

“What do you want to do now?” Jake asks.

“Let’s go thrifting!” I reply.

Ah, the adventures of thrifting. We roamed around the isles of clothes that are filled with character and that have been loved on a bit more than brand new clothes in retail stores. There’s nothing like buying nifty things for much less than what you’d pay for in stores nowadays.

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Of course, we had to end this perfect day with watching Star Wars and splurging on some delightful vegan ice cream. This year, overall though, is ending and wrapping up quite nicely and I couldn’t ask for a better ending to a better year. But, hey, it can only get better, huh? I’m so looking forward to all the new and exciting adventures that are held for me this new coming year. It was so very nice knowing you, 2014, you will be remembered. Well, this insomniac needs a cat nap at least, for it’s already 5 in the morning. Goodnight to my other fellow insomniacs, and good morning to the early birds!

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