Metamorphosis

Personal Thoughts

Do you ever just skim through old photographs and shock yourself with how much you’ve changed throughout the years? That’s definitely something a lot of us do, I mean, we even have a hash-tag for it: #tbt (Throwback Thursday anyone?). I guess it’s such a natural part of our humanity, isn’t it? Reminiscing through our past and trying to think of all the ways in which we have progressed or have become better as people?

Do you remember your first big haircut? I do. It was my freshman year and I had really long hair. Running track with long hair isn’t fun either, unless you like getting whipped in the face a bunch of times. A lot of people thought I had beautiful hair, and whenever I brought up the idea of cutting it, they would all instantly shut me down to tell me that I would really regret it. In the end, who’s to know? I ended up chopping most of it off, and I loved it. It felt like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders… literally though. Funny, how much a haircut can do. That haircut was one of many things that I did to change my physical appearance.

After freshman year, I was determined. I would try everything I could to become who I saw myself to be on the inside. I wanted others to view my creativity, but on my exterior, so I would draw out self portraits of how I imagined myself to look like in five years. Even after all the years of changing myself, I am still not done. I am much closer than I was the day before, though, which I’m content with. Even though I do want others to see my creativity, it doesn’t mean that I’m doing it for others, because ultimately, I’m doing it for myself. Coming from a very low self esteem and an eating disorder, I never saw myself as beautiful. However, the more I changed my outward appearance, the more beautiful I found myself to be.

My hair color, my accessories, my clothing, my tattoos; these are all apart of who I am and who I want to be. This doesn’t make me less of a person or more of a person, and it also does not mean that I am vain or selfish. These are what make me more confident and help me to stand up for myself. If dying my hair blue is going to make me smile a little bit more, or having a beautiful piece of art tattooed on my body is going to make me feel more confident in my skin and more badass, then why not?

met·a·mor·pho·sis

/ˌmedəˈmôrfəsəs/

Noun

  • a change of the form or nature of a thing or person into a completely different one, by natural or supernatural means.

We’re all going or have gone through some sort of “metamorphosis”, and it ‘s good, because we are not the people we were yesterday. I would be really worried if all of humanity still had the mind of a newborn, but lucky us, we’re not newborns! So, look around you, and take in all the beautiful people out there that are going through their own special metamorphosis. Each day we are closer to the person we want to be, and being closer to that is what makes us smile, and happiness is the one thing that looks great on everyone.

Pruning Season

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For the past two months, I have been having a lot of time to myself outside in the wintry cold, and pruning at work. The orchard in my job is very expansive, so there are a large amount of trees to prune. When I would approach a tree for the first time, it would literally be a disaster. These branches and limbs would overflow in every which way possible. It was so disastrous, that I heard it speak under it’s breath, mocking me, “There’s no possible way you can fix this.” Despite it’s sneering remarks, I took my pruners with a great force of confidence and snipped away the intruding branches and twigs, and anything that was going to cause this tree to grow in a negative way. As the days grew longer and longer with pruning, I felt pain start to form in my back and my arms from overusing them. It required a great deal of persistence, but I was able to prune every resistant tree in the orchard.

With most events in my life, I of course thought of what I was doing with great depth. I began to compare this with scripture, like John 15:1-4,

“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.”

I begin to think about how God always puts us in a situation at one point in our lives where it feels as though we are truly broken. All the addictions that once held us in chains are now being cut and broken by Christ. All the sorrows, all the heartaches, all the sleepless nights, all the pain, all the illnesses, all the anxiety, all the voices in your head that tell you that you are not good enough or you’ll never amount to anything. There’s a point in our lives where God prunes all those negative branches in our life out. He cuts out all the intrusions that take you away from further seeking and serving his Kingdom, and provides more space for light to seep in so that you are able to grow. Without light, you cannot grow. Also, pruning is always done in the coldest and most brutal seasons. The storm takes over your life, and you feel as though you are being pushed in every aspect of your life. Until the sun starts poking through and life begins to grow within you, allowing you to bloom beautiful flowers that then turn into ripened, delicious fruit.

This all seems like such a complicated process, but that’s because it is! This all has to happen to us, though, so that we do not wither and die away, but that we are open to receive God’s light and love, which allows our spirits to grow!

For it says in Ephesians 5:14,

 “Wake up, sleeper,

rise from the dead,

and Christ will shine on you.”

Winter season is over, and the Spring time is here! Rise from your darkness, and live in the light that God has given you!

Love and Blessings,

Kat